I have been considering breaking my fast for the past hour. My Lenten practice that I have chosen is to avoid eating a whole other meal after dinner. 9-10 pm is when the urge sets in. Tonight it has been especially strong.
Thinking about it has helped me to remember why this happens. Once again, I'm not really hungry. I'm tired. Baby woke up at 4:40. First meeting of the day at 6:30. My husband gave me the gift of a short nap by keeping the baby occupied. But then the rest of the day was all go. So now, my body is saying stop. I'm arguing, wanting to keep going but needing carb fuel to make that happen.
It's amazing how Lent can make you more intentional.
Before I would have had the meal without even realizing why. Now it will be a real choice. Even our minor temptations (like late night snacks) can reveal something about us. Major ones can too, if we pay attention. What gift can we give ourselves that might fill that need in a better way, leading toward more abundant life? For me, for tonight, that means sleep instead of a snack.
Thinking about it has helped me to remember why this happens. Once again, I'm not really hungry. I'm tired. Baby woke up at 4:40. First meeting of the day at 6:30. My husband gave me the gift of a short nap by keeping the baby occupied. But then the rest of the day was all go. So now, my body is saying stop. I'm arguing, wanting to keep going but needing carb fuel to make that happen.
It's amazing how Lent can make you more intentional.
Before I would have had the meal without even realizing why. Now it will be a real choice. Even our minor temptations (like late night snacks) can reveal something about us. Major ones can too, if we pay attention. What gift can we give ourselves that might fill that need in a better way, leading toward more abundant life? For me, for tonight, that means sleep instead of a snack.
